Sixteen Stanzas

If only they knew how much I’ve grown and learned about myself. 

If only they knew and felt my strength.

If only they knew my breadth and depth of accountability. 

If only they knew how proud I am of who they are, who they are becoming.

If only I could know them.

If only they could know me. 

If only a door was open.

If only a dialogue.

If only a continuation of healing as a family. 

If only we could accept our circumstances.

If only they knew how deeply remorseful I feel.

If only they knew how gratitude is at the center of my life. 

If only a shared cup of tea and donuts. 

If only laughter of a memory. 

If only they knew that motherhood changed me for the better. 

If only a voice.